Tuesday, October 11, 2011


My cousin Jake passed away on September 29th, and we had his funeral last week .  I am so, so sad.  Maybe I was in denial, but I really didn't think cancer would take his life.  I thought he would for sure beat it with chemo, and live on.  I remember him so clearly when he was little- just so cute, with his blond hair and blue eyes and freckles, always tag teaming with his twin, John.

  I dream of a world where little blond boys don't have to grow up, and especially don't have to die; but I guess that's what God made heaven for.

This is the message Jake left, and I think it's really special:
20 years may seem a short time...but it was my lifetime.
I may not have lived the life you dreamed for me...
But I lived the life I was meant to live...here
Now I go on to live my life where you cannot see
...which doesn't mean it won't be awesome!
Perhaps the only part that's not fair is that
I get to see you...but you can't see me.
I can run and not be weary, walk and not faint...jealous yet?
I can leap buildings in a single bound and walk through walls!
I can fly with eagles and visit the many wonders of the earth.
I can visit with all your relatives that have passed on before me.
You still have some time left here...
 (Amen, Jake. You rock, cuz. And I'm totally jealous.)

To read more about his story or to make a donation to help with his medical expenses, you can visit his blog  

"There are far, far better things ahead
than any we leave behind."
-C.S. Lewis

These photos were taken about a week before his passing.                          


CountessLaurie said...

Kellie, that sucks, I am sooo sad for you. I wish I had words, but I don't... sending hugs for your hurting heart!

Allyson & Jere said...

I'm so sorry Kellie. Cancer sucks, there is no other way to say it. But what an amazing guy and what a great farewell thought he shared. In the end, he really kinda is the lucky one. Leaping buildings in one bound, and not having to deal with the CRAP this world is. Hang in there friend.

Tylaine said...

Man Kellie! why do your posts always make me cry. I'm so so sorry for your loss. He is definately in a much better place now and he sounds like he was an amazing person. God bless you and your family!

~Dana said...

Great pics.. miss him!